Whether it be an addiction or a sin we constantly slip on, we all at some point have our own personal worn path towards God’s throne for one specific sin. No matter how hard we try, a day or a year from now, we find ourselves walking down that same path towards God for forgiveness. If your path is anything like mine, it is not a nice smooth path.
The path is composed of numerous fossilized footprints that serve as concrete reminders of our past shortcomings. Sure, you may have come to grips with your struggle and God has on numerous times cast your actions into the Sea of Forgetfulness, but every shortcoming forces to mind how far you think you have traveled or how victorious you think you are living. Every past footstep on this path brings another painful memory. A footstep over to the right might bring up the fact that at that particular repentance, you swore up and down that this would be the last time you would travel down this path. Then another footprint reminds you that at that particular time, you knew you needed to experience forgiveness but you felt indifferent towards God’s Grace.
I have long-sensed felt that sin shatters our perception of God. That’s to say that God is not destroyed by sin, far from it, but what is shattered are parts of your faith; the love you experience from God and God’s promises. Every time you experience forgiveness, the shattered pieces are glued back together. The tragedy is that every time we sin, the glued pieces shatter again. And the constant breaking and coming back together and breaking and coming back together take their toll to where it is almost as if what we constantly destroy becomes irreparable. The constant shattering has reduced our pieces into sand, which isn’t easily reparable.
Can we out sin God? Can we water down the Savior’s Blood? Can we exhaust Grace? I don’t think so but at what point do our chains wear sores down to the bone? Worse yet, at what point do we become accustomed to the bars that sin places us in? We are far from accepting sin as natural or justifying it like careless apostates but we have dulled our senses to the point where we have forgotten what Grace and Forgiveness feel like.
14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens,[e] Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
While you can’t out sin God, you can’t shock God either. There are times when my repentance goes far beyond my inability to hit the mark. I need to be honest with myself and with God that there are times that I don’t feel remorse or repentant. There are times when I think that my particular Sea of Forgetfulness has become too polluted for God NOT to remember my sin. We need to be honest with ourselves that while God’s Grace is limitless; our own ability in comprehending forgiveness and the Father’s Love is not beyond warping and staining. May we never get to the point in our walks where we equate forgiveness with lack of consequence because the consequence of sin is the slow erosion of our faith to where we may even tome to doubt God’s Love for us. Worst yet, we might even start to project onto God our feelings and perspectives about ourselves and think He honestly believes the awful things we believe in ourselves.